=O

OMG I haven't touched this in so long...I guess it's beter to spam yoru friends about it cause they acutally read it, and I don't aev to log in!

I can't believe i'm sitll logged in <_<;; I would've forgotten my pw otherwise........


So..summary, high school painful, I've been working on my story a lot.....and I doubl I'll omce back to this site until at least next yr!!!


this is my story site that no one visits -.- : freewebs.com/digimonmemo

Oh yes, and happy late new years and christmas and halloween and birthday and stuff....










WOw....



Lookign back at my last post, I've realized hwo miserable my life was back then...brings back memories. But of course, I kidna got fond of studying..I'm turning int oa nerd!!!


And I got a Wii, and now my dad says I shouldn't study for so long and someitmes he makes me play the Wii XD



Life's all well now.....Oh, CHiense isn't so bad. I had no choice and I had to take it as an language at shcool, but the only have amderin and I speak cantonese...but It's fine. I'ts my 2nd best grade in shcool actually <_< (1st is PE)








Yes..life is fine...just learning to deal with it....

Weeeeeeeeeeeeee

Okay
this is probably going to be my last psot for....maybe 3 months
dad's back on friday
end of my life
spring break, no chinese school even worse
sure its' a hoilday
b utI don't get to rest!
I'm supposed to be busy like..workign till midnight!
I CAN'T HAVE VACATIONS OR ELSE YOU KNOW WHAT!!!
so yeah I'll probably suicide by next week

Well for the remaing time I'd liek to talk about my happy life so far
okay the not happy life is that I got antoehr D on math
the happy thing is my grade onyl dropped 1%=D
So I sitll haev C- and not a D+!

What I really mean to say is
well...Aniki needed to fidn a book at the library, so he would go there with me on friday after school
ya knwo I always go on friday after school wit hfay kaav and janice
and I mean before, they were making little dates for me
their idea WAS in fact bring hi mto the library after school
I'm like "cmon taht will NEVER happen"

wow I was wrong....
so on Friday we..basicly did our hw..
Fay was really picky a bout our date cause she's afraid her mom woudl see
so I had 1 hr with him
we did hw for 40 mins
and for20 mins we walked around inside the library
(NOTE: THE LIBRARIAN IS CREAPY LIEK MRS SHAH)
I mean she jsut walked aroud teh corner to check on waht we were doing

and I don't want to go in details of what we did
NOTHING INAPROPIRATE I MEAN DEFINATELY NOT
but yeah it was fun =D

SO yeah I talked to all ym friends on MS
they alreayd have spring break =(
and me?
I'm goig nt oLA next week
I mean...my dad's goig nto be back on friday
and on friday I'm jstu gonna try on a billion clothes he bought back
saturday no chiense school..very bad...........
but my dad's probably sleeping due to time change
but then I'll jsut do my fridya hw then right?
I'm sure someone would assign me a project to do...a nice big project.....
(I jsut love hw now/ don't you realize?)
And then on Sunday I'd be sleeping in
and then we're probably gonna pack up our clothes for LA
cause i know we wont' be here on Monday

who knwos when we'll come back...maybe wednesday (BAD! TOO EARLY)
err I dunno waht I'm gonna do there anyways
but then I gues I'm safe this weekend
ROSANNA BETTER INVITE ME TO HER PARTY NEXT NEXT WEEK
SHE'S GONNA BE MY SAVOR OF THE WEEK
SO then.....I can just uhhhh....uh oh waht woudl I do on sunday?..
O-0;;


weekdays are so easy to escape from
saturdays not as easy when you don't ahev chinese school
well we can go t ochinese school..they probably my mom wants to go shopping or something
(hopefully) or maybe we loo kat cars or so
probably 1 or 2
THen I just..stick in ym room to do hw
TRYIGN TO KEEP BUSY FOR 4 HRS
cause past 6 is safe (5pm is the deadlist time)
the nwe go to dinner
probably 8 or something
and they watch a movie fo the rest of the night
I can play MS for an hr...hopefully..
or I jstu watch tv

Then on sunday..I try to wake up really late
liek at 10 is good
then I walk the dog..(PLZ ALONE OR ELSE MY DAD WILL SAY STUFF ABOUT TESTING)then play piano....then its' about 12pm...
then we eat....
probably at home..then I go back upstairs to do so math hw and all
they do their stuff downstairs
tv? backyarding? oh well....
I stick in ym room until 4 when my dad picks up my maid
grab some snack
just take a break until 5 or something
go back upstairs and stuff yoruself in teh room
then shower
adn dinner

Sundays are so easy to bypass cause it's jsut like everyone so carefree they don't realize anything
saturdays are definately the worst
no..the worst is holidays
and when spring break comes
trust me
I wont be alive anymore

A Basic SUmmary for 3 months

Wel I totaly forgot I had a blogger. But anyways thsoe 3 months ltos of changed trust me. The onyl 2 ppl who read thsi already know but I'll say it anyways. My dad tests me in chinese and I liek fail cause I dont' remember. Then he will tourchure me unti lI get it right. That's liek for the rest of my life. IT suks! I swear I will never remember hwo to write all those chinese words. Sure Monica being born in China and a pro at all. CHey you're so smart and you actually learn. But as for Me, CHloe, Jen, Alisa and teh rest of our class it's not like we really learn. SO I jstu don't knwo waht to do...my life sucks. IT's goig nto continue liek this til lI Get it right

WHICH IS NEVER
I SWEAR IT'S NEVER, NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY

So...every since I turned 13 life's jsut been sucking like it hasn't suck before. The otehr day you probably know I got litterally whipped by a ruler and forced to write 5 pgs of "I am not an honest kid. I broke my promise and lie to people." (OMG I STILL REMEMBER IT DAMN IT) and then my dad was goig nt oforce me to take it to school teh next day and stand in frot of the school to get 25 signatures of people on that paper. That's how much my life sucks.

In other words my dad is gone to china until spring break. I have 3 weeks to relax after studying so hard. But then I jsut wish everyday could be like this, where I don't have to keep myself busy everyday to aviod being tested. As a result I haven't played MS for 2 months and I haven't lvled for 4 months. All my friends on MS I had missed so much.

That's my life. Now you can hear about school. It's fun, it's nice. Except my math is a C- and I have 1 more test on Monday before the grade gets turned in. Bummer, that will make it a D. I had a science test on Friday too; open notebook. But then on Monday while we were watchign a 10 min video, MRs ROgers caleld me up. She showed me my test and asked if Linsey, who sits next to me, was cheating off me. I siad i idnd't see her cheat. She called up Linsey, she said she didn't cheat. We both got 5 wrong she said, and also mispelled the same words. But I know she really didn't see US cheat. SHe said she didn't see, she even marked Linsey -4, then cahgned it to -5. It's because someone e-mailed her and said Linsey cheated off me. And now Ithink Mrs Rogers hates me casue she keeps on staring at me.

Finally, a positive thought in life. Quincy doesn't let go of my hand in Yearbook. That is, until someone is coming nearby. Oh great, negative thought. See last week MRs Quan and the rest of the yearbook class were just talking; me and quincy were the only ones working at the computers. so then Quincy just put his arm around me and hugged me and someone squealed. And the nteh class started to talk about us. The group near MRs Quan were sayign stuff like "Quincy how could you!" and the group my the door (who were dancing around the classroom) were saying stuff like "Cmon can't there be a little romance in thsi class?"
And then they said "No!"
Mrs Quan said "I think it says so on Classroom Rules #2 TO KEEP YOUR HANDS TO YORUSELVES!"
And He never puts his arm around me in yearbook again, or try to hug; just holding hands by the corner of the computer room.

Well taht's all really...

one or the other

Ok Cj is my MS bf, I don't know him in real life
theafore he's only a bf to Lilamon, not Icria Minamoto
Okay there done with that =/

OMG SOmehow I knew it
Aniki has been judging me as his gf lately
he just was never strong enough to really ask me out
=/ since Monica is the onyl one who reads this and she always know,s skippign hte details
Aww he's like Cj just not into the mushy stuff
And that "I love you" thing was totally random and freaky
I was like "OMG did he jsut say I love you?"
I mean it totally reminded me of Cj =/ only cj says that

But anyways...dude why do you thik he likes me? o.0;;;
Meghan was like "OMG Aren't you happy =P"
Monica was like "OMG SERIOUSLY!?!?!?"
I'm like "eh..I can't explain..."
butbutbutbut how long do you think he was keeping all of this?
Truthfully, as I told Meghan, I stopped liking Aniki about 8th grade =/
but how di I predict? I predicted that in 6th grade, once I don't like him anymore he'll like me

WEird thing is me and Aniki have so many differences
COUPLES USUALY BOND CAUSE OF HTE THINGS THEY HAVE IN COMMON
We basicly dislike each other of what we do
All he ever thinks abotu is sports
All I ever think abotu is Digimon
How long do you think we'll last?
Obviously we won't have arguements....much....so there is no reason for us to break up

No I doubt he'll take me to the movies or something <.<
nothing much to say really...=/
(OMG I didn't do my math hw X.X)
Toodles

Dear Aznpinoy41

{this is typed as a letter directly to my Maple Story bf, Aznpinoy41 (cj)}
(btw this was typed up like on dec 2nd, but my comptuer was so slow I couldn't post it. I believe this passage really shows a lot about how I felt that day)

You told me you loved me
You asked me why I loved you
But when you see my friend who was just like you
You turned around and went to the other direction

Who is he?
Did you say yes?
Do you like him?
Why did he ask you out?
, you shouted at me privately

You know how we met
and on that same day John also asked me out
It was only 1 little detail I added to describing my friend
but those questions, were your response

You talked to me like you didn't love me anymore
You're words were like towards an enemy who is secretly stalking you
But am I an enemy?

And I said this right back to you
Why does this matter to you?
so he's just my friend
Why are you asking me these questions?

but you didn't want to listen to my questions
you just wanted a straight yes or no to your's
and as well as I remember, this is how it went:

So he asked you out?
yeah
Did you say yes?
no. WHy would I? I've already said yes to you
why did you say he asked you out
well it's not like I asked him out, he asked me out
did I say you asked him out
(I was silent)
did I say you asked him out
well.....no
then why did he ask you out
I dunno
do you like him
OK, CJ I'VE KNOWN JOHN MUCH LONGER BEFORE I KNEW YOU, AND SURE I HAD SOME FEELINGS FOR HIM BUT IT WAS A LONG TIME AGO
do you still like him
he's a friend now
do you still like him
fine, I did
do you now
no

that was it, you list of questions was all asked, all you wanted
but what happens now? what did you think?
I tried to be in your place for a few moments
what came up was jealousy and the feeling of being cheated

But for what? It's simple, John asked me out, I said no, we're still friends; not bf gf
I never went out with him, I get asked out so many times, I could cheat on every boy in maple Story
But I didn't, because I really like you and I wouldn't rather be with anyone else
I don't judge boys by their age, their cuteness, weither they're rich, or have NX
You're a 6th grader, I didn't deny that fact
You're not all NXed out, doesn't make you better than everyone else
And I didn't know how much money you had, I didn't care about those things

I never asked you why you loved me
when you didn't talk to me much that day at the Toy Factory, when you left me
When you mentioned about dumping me, when you chat invited some other girl
No, it couldn't be over now. I thought you said you really loved me, and you're leaving me for her?
She looked at me for 2 seconds, said I was cute, and left
You asked me, if you dumped me, would I be mad?
and...I thought that was it. WHy would you ask such a question.
But you didn't abandon me, you said you never would
then you told me the story of your old gf

And now I think
did you ask ME out because I was just beautiful
or you wanted to make your old gf jealous
I don't know the answer to that yet, but I thought about it after we were silent

What if
after that conversation, I said, "I can't take this"
I closed the chat box
I left your guild
I would block all chat invites and whispers
I would run away to such a far place it would take you forever to catch up to me
Somewhere down the Eos Tower I would hide until the day was gone
Would you come after me?
Would you leave me there in my misery?

Do you really love me, Cj?
If you came down that tower, and you said you were really sorry,
I.........don't think I should accept your appology
How could you be such a jerk?
we fought over some stupid thought that I was cheating on you
That you thought I didn't really love you

Did you recall our happy moments together that afternoon?
You came up to me and gave me a Purple Tube
we all decided to spend our lovely sunday at Florina Beach having fun
We played as teachers at Ludi
But John finally got to lvl 35, he wants to pq, he was at Ludi 101st floor as well
HE says Hi to Cj because he reconzies the guild
you replied that I was your gf
I wasn't sure if he was feeling left out since you said that
but he was fine, happier than ever, he said you seemed cool to be with
But you were the one who was put down
How could you come to such conclusion?


But I didn't leave the guild, I didn't run away
I stayed at the same spot, feeling a hand grabbing everything out of my heart
John said, "let me have a talk with him"
and I waited....
everything is just wrong, I thought. He'll never talk to me now, he won't bother to consider me as his gf anymore. It's best if he goes find another girl to be with. I don't care, I have a million other boys who would want to go out with me. WHy would I stay with him. I shouldn't even stay in thsi cruded guild, I'll go make my own digimon guild now.

Nothing else, but negative thoughts
it was over, well as I thought
then I looked back up at the computer screen
and in light green text, you said "I'm sorry"
I didn't have anything to say
I jsut wanted to cry on someone's shoulder
but it would've been rude for me to say nothing
"it's ok" but in real life I wouldn't
I would still be there crying and believe it or not, I did cry
just small tears, they filled my eyes

my mom passed by, I quickly hid my tears
I closed the MS program for a bit
and after she left, I opened it back up
and you were right there standing next to me
and even thought I didn't run away, I was still unforgivenable
I wasn't thinking thsi whole thing it didn't happen, ever
you seemed normal as normal as you ever will be
but as for me, it still remained in my mind, I didn't know--- I didn't feel like I could talk to you the same way I did before
I was still...scared

You gave me f2 (smile)
I did f2 back, but I really didn't feel it
if there was an facial expression for it, I'd do head down while thinking of something, unsure
and you gave me a kiss
I wouldn't have kissed back, but I did
I wouldn't have kissed you after that, I still wouldn't today
All I would do is cry on you, just a hug, but no kissing

I guess in my heart, I don't feel that love anymore
I lost it when we were fighting
and over time I kinda gained it back
but even today, 3 days after, I still feel unsure
I really love you too
but if we could be easily broken like that...
I...don't know how long we'll be together

If you here next to me right now
I would hold your hand
I would laugh with you like we always did
but I still have that thought if it went the other way
would we still be together?

You were mad so easily that day
I didn't know you anymore
you never talked to me this way before
you reminded me of a digimon character, Kouji
except Kouji was rough before he grew softer in his heart
you reversed it, you yelled like he'd yelled
"Why do you think you're here Takuya? *grabs collar* Answer me! You're just endangering the team more than nesscessary! You should just back off."
"why do you like him. did I say that you asked him out? did I?"

I'm still scared, but I know you meant none of this to happen
I know you love me, but my heart is still wandering in the darkness
How can I fix this? It's like I know another side to you now
I just can't react the same way I did before whenever I see you

Please know that I still very much love you, but the other side of me still thinks about that day.
I'm sorry too. But this can't get out of me.

~Lilamon

Hirari

Hi Let's talk about Kouji Wada's new song!
we will feature the lyrics of Kouji Wada's arrival working at at Toei Animation once again after 4 years of disappearanceWe are all very happy (if you're not you don't haev a life) to see Kouji Wada back on stage for the Digimon seriesKouji Wada arrived back at episode 30, singing the 2nd opening theme of Digimon SaversHirari Now let's listen to what he has to say(Kanji, japanese pronounciations, are above the english translations)


KIZUTSUITAHANE GA
My injured wings

HISEKI WO YOBIOKOSHITE
WIll awaken a miracle

FUTATABI MAUYO
And I will flutter once again

YUME NO KAZE NI NORI
Riding on the wind of dreams

KIRAMEKU NIJI WO KOETE
And surpassing the glittering rainbow

TABI NO TSUDZUKI EI
continue towards my journey

SORA WO MIAGETE SAA
Now look up at the sky!

MICHINARU SONO
Break open

TOBIRAHIRAKE
That unknown door!

MIRAI E IN THE SKY
Towards my future in the sky

KANJITA MAMA NI
Just as I felt it

SHINJITA IT'S MY SOUL
I believed it's my soul

DOKO MADE MO YUKU YO
I'll go anywhere

MICHIBIKE IN THE SKY
Guide me in the sky

MINNA WO TSURETE
Bringing everyone along

SHINJITA ITS MY SOUL
I believed it's my soul

HIRARI MAIAGARU
Nimbly I will soar above!

CREDITS Video at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=krSBwBYWPekSee the traslations at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MILOH_1lzp0Song, Hirari by Kouji Wadatranslated by dats.us and withthewill.net yay! Well that's our spam wasn't that prettyful?Aww there's

(top row): Captain Satusuma & Kudamon, Tohma, Masaru, Chika (behind masaru), Sayuri, Yoshino, Raramon, Miki, and Megumi
(bottom): Gaomon, Agumon, Ikuto, Falcomon, (behind falcomon) WhitePawnCHessmon, and BlackPawnChessmonAnd in the background are the Megas, ShrineGreymon, (err I jstu forgot but it's like...MagnaGaogamon or something), and Rosemon

Happy Thanksgiving
~Icria Minamoto

P.S. Hirari means quickly I guess..somehow ther's no exact translation to it hmm...well from conclusion, Maiagaru means to soar aboveSo Hirari must mean something like "nimbly I"but the translation says "chirari" means at a glance, by accident oh well it's still Kouji Wada =P

Just stuff

So many thing to say but I dun haev much time before I have to go to bed X.x

SO yeah, da revolution dude came to our class
I volinteered as one of the 5 ppl to come up
it was (from elft to right) Domino, Kiara, me, and 2 otehr boys I forgot who they were
*poitns to the 2 girls* "you 2 can go sit down.."
*Ithink for a bit *poitns to the 2 boys "you can sit dow nadn yo ucan sit down
*potins to me "You can stay up here for a bit

so yeah I was kinda nervous for that...
so then he asked me if the bullet was heavy I said yes
"Now, waht would happen, if that bullet hit her arm right there?"
She would die? No even worse
MY ARM WOULD GO FLYING 10 FT!
"WHat would happen to her leg?"
DUN WANT TO THIN KABOUT IT
And waht if it hit her...rigghhtt...here" *puts bullet on forhead
OH NO YOU DIDN'T!

SO yeah....
in other news I'm sjt ureally happy for
well.. Igot a bf in Maple story =D
wel l Igot a lvl 80 hutenr before bt uI dumepd him
now I haev a lvl 42 theif he's really nice like phil (my old bf before I lsot my account)
bad htign is that he only comes on weekends mostly
well eh comes on wekdays lie kat 9:50 for 2 mins
he doesn't say anything he doesn't even talk
he acts liek no one's online doensn't say bye and logs off

oh well...
WEll.........sadly..but the truth
he's a 6th grader X.x
I really dun care what age he is he's sitll really sweet ^^