Happy Birthday to me

yes today's my brithday, my sweet 13th birthday
I went to school and other than leaving a very important paper at home, and going back to get it, everythign was moving fine
ya know, I got my candy at P.E., first period
Mr Ward amde everyoen sing happy birthday, in which they had no spirit to lol
Well, after was jsut the mile, a tiring mile
Then a Bill Nye video in TA class
Then loottsss of correctioning in math (bad thing)
Then worked on our personal essay and jsut chatter about the stamp act alll core (and went to the bathroom hehe)

lunch, oh no...
see we always sit at the 2nd table, but suddenly boys came and stole it in the past 2 weeks
today I manged to get it back, btu the boys jsut dropepd by again
Fay reserved her seat and went to get lunch
instead one of hte boys pushed off hte backpack and sat in both seats, leaving it 1 less spot for us
After fay came back, another boy joiend in her taken spot
along with 2 otehr boys, someone else and the twin, Theodore
This was soo embarrassing
the 3 tables sorrounding us were all starign and gossiping, even Quinc ywas watching thsi whole scene
we gave up
move back to the 2nd table of lonelyness in the dark corner of the MPR

WEll, science, BLEH! I CNA'T USE A FAN!
Now how am I suppsoe to move a car without touchign it?
Yearbook, jsut bleh, nothing

So the day ended fairly nice, only taht I was talking to Nikki and it seems that she didn't want me to knwo abotu her secret
I kidna feel bad for her, now that she knows
stupid me, why did I tell her that!
(No i'm not telling you guys! this is personal!)

So I went home, my parents were kidna pissed off at ppl today
since they ordered the wrong box to us and charged us an automatic $3000 or something
Well after my piano was intterupted 5 times, I went to do my hw at 4:30
instead my dad came up and started to talk to me

Secretly, this made me cry
the fact that he says I cna't have a boyfriend til lI'm in college
Woah, ppl liek you, Monica, you're probably like "waht the? So what?"
Dude, this isn't about Quincy
It's like, feeling that you have a crush on someone
and when that person asks you out, you can't say yes
College? THAT'S LIKE 4 YEARS!
He says I'm too yougn to have a bf
O really?
out of:
Stephanie
Rosanna
Monica
Meghan
Chloe
Elaine
Nikki
and all my otehr friends
WEll, Stephane, Rosanna, and Moncia typically dont' count
since your'e the not the kind of girls who talk about boys
anyways, out of all of my friends, liek 50% have bfs

one reason was becuase I wont' be concentrated on my work
but College? that's even mroe work!
I'm gonna even be more unconcetrated

I mean jsut think, this is goign down as history
when I grow up, I'm gonna have to tell all my friends and relatives taht I never had a bf in my childhood EVER

BUt again, tis like having a crush
a love that can never be fullfilled


This brithday was goign great, but unfortunately even a special day can go down with the flaw
I didn't htink there woudl be a flaw this year
I didn't want it to be one
6th grade was worse enough, the rain was my sorrow
7th grade was jsut fine
but here, I'm really crying
for 2 hrs now!

I can no longer acccept a request for anyone
love, it's poinltess to me now
even if he (anyone can be him)
even if he lieks me
tries to ask me out, puts in all the strength and courage to
All I can do is say no
taht would break his heart forever
sent him cryign in the bathroom like there's no hope
like hwo I am now
no hope

the rest of my sorrow however is personal
taht I cannot type on this blog


So today, I jstu want to say a few things:
ty Monica for the little erasers, theyr'e so cute
ty everyone that wished me a happy brithday, which wasn't happy in the end
Sorry Nikki taht I had ever mentioned it
Quincy, I hope you won your football game today
Those boys at lunch, you were one of my causes of this day
and to myself, I shall always have an unloveable love life childhood memory